What is absolutely fascinating to me is that, on thsi linear construct we call TIME, we can choose how to spend it. With friends, with family, alone. Spend it with established relationships, or venture into the unknown and seek new ones, unsure if the currency will have been well spent adventuring. Spend it attempting to try everything, or spend it doing nothing at all. The caveat is that every purchase is expensive. We’re using the most valuable currency known to man. Every purchase has terms and conditions that may benefit or hurt you or someone else.
At times, I might be sitting at a red light and catch a glimpse of another driver peering deep into space, or planting their face into their palms between the moment it takes the ruby light to turn emerald. I imagine the battle(s) they might be facing that is causing that physical response, and think if they have the tools to combat and come out of it on top. Then I realize that I too, exist on this plane and should be accounting for my “spending” habits.
My conditioning was one of servitude. I am to want for nothing. Anything I did or accomplished was, and always should be, for the benefit of someone else. If I “won”, my guilt was triggered. The only way to free myself of the “burden of success” was to absolve myself of any and all spoils of victory. Deep conditioning.
So with the time remaining, which none of us know exactlty how much of it we truly have, what does one pursue when your programming constantly fights against “winning”?
It’s easier to watch and criticize and ponder than it is to participate, stumble, regroup and win.
The thing is, if you choose to spend your precious currency in the watch/criticize/ponder department for too long, assessing everyone else, soon you’ll discover your account is empty and your choices amounted to nothing (unless that’s your calling. Then rock-rock on).
Spend this currency wisely. Worry is the cousin of fear. Seek to spend it on uplifting, motivating and enriched experiences, even if that’s just doing nothing when needed. Do nothing richly.
One day, we’ll want to look at our empty accounts and be proud of our diverse portfolio of a life.
Well spent. Fully enjoyed.